The ever-approaching Tsunami....

What in the Hell is wrong with me today????
Something is REALLY bugging me and I can't for the life of me, figure out what.
This is like my 5th blog today! Maybe its a comglomerate of things.
I don't know. All I do know is that Im in PAIN.
Not just emotional pain...physical too.

EVERY DAMN THING HURTS.

Right down to my boobs! And it all rushing at me at an alarming rate. I need my Healer. What is REALLY goin on here? I wish I could talk to someone, well a part of me does, all i really want right now is to feel better. My emotions are soooo conniving! What I feel half the time is not what's reality, which in turn make it far, far worse. This month is kicking my iz-nazz!!! Today especially. I guess God is trying to knock me senseless cuz all my other resources are depleted. I depended on someone to help me thru this and now that's gone too. I feel like a phone bill that hasnt been paid...disconnected. Im just going thru the motions. I have GOT to get over this. This 20ft tidal wave is about to hit my shores and i need a dam! Just when i thought i was getting thru it...BAM! A cotton-pickin TSUNAMI is in the forecast. What a riot! Almost makes me laugh. But i guess God is teaching me that HE IS MY DAM. It still hurts like alll get out. Still I wish...oh nevermind...Jesus, I know with YOUR help I'll get through....(hopefully not too beat up)