Another day, Another dollar...

Well, this weekend was pretty mundane, didn't do much except my hair. I had to rebraid it cuz WOW it was looking pretty pitiful. Took me 12 hrs, yeah 12hrs!!! Anyway, nothing much else went on. Oh, MBR finally did read the last blog and told me he had no comment on it. Sometimes he so frustrates me but that's him! I wanted to know what he thought but he tells me that because it's from my mind he won't criticize it. I didn't ask for critiscism, just a comment. I think he's the only one that reads this...oh well. I wanna get close to him as a friend but he makes it sooo difficult. Hopefully the more he knows me the more "priviledges" I'll get. HA HA! One interesting thing did happen....I began talkin to two people on BP and found one of them to be quite irritating, well not irritating but like, I don't how to explain it...pushy. Maybe Im not used to it but this guy wanted to be like my bf after just emailin and talkin ONE TIME on the phone. He was telling me all about his wife and some stuff about his divorce. It kinda weirded me out cuz even offered to pay for my school. But the strangest thing was it kinda reminded me of what I did to MBR. He thought it was hilarious cuz he said that exactly what I did. I was pushy with him. Well I DID not offered to pay for anything major but the pushy thing is me. I think what kinda turned him off. Cuz this guy definately turned me off. I don't even really wanna talk to him. I feel bad. It's funny how MBR still talks to me. He still calls me everyday and text me. I don't get it...I mean don't get me wrong I don't want it to stop..heck no. I like the fact that he's even thinking about me. That what makes it soo crazy, I mean this guy is willing to talk to me and I am not interested at all, yet it's like that with MBR only HE's the one not interested but HE still wants to talk to me. Or he could be just biding his time....I don't know. I could go batty thinking about it so I not gonna. I'm just not used to a man wanting to be my friend without nothing in it for him. Maybe he's right, I like him because of that reason. (of course I will never admit to that) He'll just gloat about it and tease me relentlessly! He already teases me about this other dude. LOL But that's okay too. I really enjoy the talks we have and he's already helped realize stuff about me. I just wish it wasn't so one-sided. I feel like I don't help him at ALL. That really bothers me. I hate the fact that he really doesn't need my help...on ANYTHING. I don't like be just a "taker". But Gosh, he understands me soooo well, it's sickening! I understand him on some things but i guess it's gonna take me longer. I just want to be there for him as much as he is for me. I don't wanna be selfish. My hope now is that I just get close enough for him to confide in me and be considered someone he trusts. Someone he can call up and hang out with without worrying or even thinkin about them tryin to come on to him. Maybe one day.