Challenges...

This month, the first month of the year is hitting me hard. Its like everything is happening allll at once. And to top it off, I found out that I have been acting like a hypocrite. Its pretty hard to admit that but I have been. MBR actually pointed that out. It was a hard pill to swallow but it did go down. And frankly it was irritating as hell. I always prided myself on being real but I guess not. I, myself, can't stand fake people or people who posed to be something but in fact are something else. But I know now that I was doing the exact same thing. Pretty humbling. I am still dealing with the endless emotions that control my heart and that's hard enough to keep under wraps. I also have not been Giving my Savior enough credit...for anything...Dag! What the heck is wrong with me!!!! Sometimes my flesh just takes over and I have temporary insanity. My God is bigger and I have to remember that. Sooo another challenge is standing before me...Am I up to it? We'll see....God, Help me.