Well it's FEB already and I finally decided to write on here. Wheww!! January was a busy and interesting month....First off, I have left my church....for good. I was accused of something I didn't do, had nothing to do with and promptly hung up on. No details, but lets just say the Pastor needs to check his sources before he goes shooting off at the mouth..but I digress. Neways, I think it's a Good thing for right now because God has been able to show me that I can stand on my own two feet with just HIM. It's good. I have been studying my Word more and spending more time with HIM. I am still gonna try and find another church to go to for the time being because I will still be here for a bit (December Im outtie like the afro of Cali) I still need to hear the Word but I think I am at a good place...theres always room for improvement.....Which is why God decides to throw me a curve ball......
Yes, at least that's what I think it is, a dang curve ball or something, a test, what, I don't know. What the heck am I talkin about...well see, umm, how do I explain this...There's this man...well how can I say...he's seems to be Great. He contacted me online and we've been talkin. And all I can say is from what the conversations we've had and I have seen his page, he's like a diamond in the rough! He is seems very sincere and totally commited to Christ which is THE best thing in the world. I haven't met him yet but I think this man will try to make the effort. NOw why in THE world would God do this to me???? I mean HE knows, I wanna be with someone and HE also knows that IM MOVING! This guy JUST moved to Cali, has a couple of issues to deal with (who doesnt) but its just nice to be able to talk to a man and not be the one who always brings up God. HE wants to talk about Jesus, what He has done in his life, and he's been challenging me already. I know God is teaching me about balance and NOW patience, because in my own self, I would much rather "get the ball rolling" but I gotta hang back. We are gonna get to know each other as friends.....first, which I still have to figure out how to do. I usually just jump right on in without testing the water, forgetting that I can't swim and then I end up drowning the guy by trying to hold on to him! Oh dang......GOD, PLEASE give HIM patience to put up with ME! LOL. Its crazy why when I really decided to just focus on trying to get outta cali ,Boom, here this man comes.......I think it's more of a test to see how I handle this.......if God allows it, this may be a blessing in disguise. If anything I will have gained another friend. So I hope I hit this one out of the park! Geez, I've had enough practice striking out!! LOL
OH btw...CHRistmas at grandma's was pretty cool. Had a blast with my niece and nephews (i will post some pics) My grandma talked my ear off but I love talking to her, she makes me laugh so much. And she told she sees me as adult now so it gives more of an excuse to keep me till like 3am! Saw Dad too, He's getting better, he's back to work. Yeah, he had MAJOR surgery the latter part of NOV and I just found THAT out 3days before I was to go but God worked it out. It was amazing really. I know my Dad wants our family to be closer and He (God) basically had me just watch and listen to everything around while I was there. I am usually opening my mouth and chewing on my kneecaps but this time God kept me silent and said "Watch". And that's what I did and HE opened my eyes to ALot. I guess He was preparing for what has happened at the church.
SOOO this year is beginning quite interesting...and I am very curious to see how this all plays out....
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