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Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Dilema..OR not???
So Im confused...well not really confused but just...I don't know..maybe just torn. What the heck am I talking about? Well, lets..there's this man, met thru a online site (NO not a dating site) Thought he was DD, wasnt (that's another story in itself, but I digress) dude has the same EXACT initals so I'll call him DDP2. ANYWAY because of the mistaken identity we started talking and BEEN talking over the phone ever since. He seems wonderful, except for a major fact that his religion is waaaaay different than mine. Its NOT fair. He seems really into me (and we've discussed this) but could it be just mere infatuation on both sides cus we have not met in person. Get this he's also in MI! What is my luck!!! Could it just be that I am just yearning for intimacy (not just sex,but hey I aint knockin that either) that Im attracted to him? Man, Im going kinda batty. I constantly have to keep myself in check about this man and he told me the same thing ( but can I really trust that anyway?) I mean the things he says to me is like WOW and I have to be calm..literally. I know part of it is because I haven't heard a man say anything REMOTELY like this in like what..hmmm..I can't even remember. It been FIVE years since I've had a man even touch me, so maybe it's just that. But it's still a dilema for me...why am so hung up on him! OH I've been good (for the most part...) I have talked to God but He is silent for the most part at this point. However, I learned my lesson with DD, and I havent spilled my guts about my whole self to him. My heart is still under lock and key but there is a crack....Anyway maybe it IS just a feeling....Well I'll have to see...stay tuned...
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