Well I am combining these last two days yet again because I have been under the weather for a couple of days.. Yet in those days I learned a painful lesson when it comes to worshipping without music. These past 7 days, give or take a 2 or 3, have shown me be a lot. And on Day six, it was like a recap of what I have been discovering. You know, everything happened that day demonstrate how to worship without music. Like worshiping when you don't feel like it...(that was at work where i wanted to roll some heads down a bowling alley and hit ALL seven pins) Or just talking about Him. I was discussing Him to an unsaved co-worker a couple hours later! And then on top of that I was sick ( headache from the pit of hell!) So day six was like "review" LOL God sure is funny.
But the biggest lesson was yet to come...
Day SEVEN...
Now this happened actually yesterday. Without going into major detail, I have a friend and I like to consider this person a really good friend. And this person said something that offended me and I didn't know how to tell this person how it made me feel. But MY FATHER prompted me to talk with them and I was planning on to but low and behold they called ME. Soooo I proceeded to tell them how I felt....IT Did NOT go over well at all. Needless to say, I am afraid we are not friends any longer. And it stings...alot. I will truly miss this person's company but I was being honest and the Word says when you have something against a fellow brother that you should go to him and that's what I did.
So why do I feel like crap???
I didn't do anything wrong, matter-fact I did what I was supposed to do according to the Word. Its only been ONE day and there was a function tonight for someone at a our church and that person was there. Talk about complete ICE...no hi, no hug, no nothing. It was like complete cut-off. And I felt terrible. However on the drive home, the Lord showed me something....He said "NOW YOU KNOW HOW I FELT IN THE GARDEN AND YET I STILL GAVE MY FATHER HIS WILL OVER MINE. " I almost drove the car off the road. I know I did right and yet I still felt like the one who was accused but my Father showed me different. I gave up my will in order to fulfill HIS. No matter what it cost me. Because in my own self it would have be mad ugly....There would have be a confrontation, some nasty words...maybe a fist....but I digress. Anyway, This hard lesson has showed me the true meaning of worshipping without music, and the bottom line is giving up your will for His...in every single area of your life. Its a hard lesson but I am still a willing student. So God...do a I get an "A" on this one??? LOL
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