HAPPY NEW YEAR!

First off...Happy New year everyone! As I sit here listening to Free Chapel online during their praise and worship singing "Its a New Season" I reflect on what has transpired this past year...All I can say is WOW and thank you Jesus! Alot has happened this past year and I am looking forward to this year. Me and the BF have made it past a year and God is changing the both of us. Im excited to what HE is gonna do this year with the both of us. He allowed him to to get a car toward the end of the year and is showing him alot (not to mention ME)so Im excited. Christmas and New Year's was great. Spent Christmas EVE with the boyfriend and Christmas Day with the Family! Had so much fun...it even snowed on christmas! New Years was good...spent it with the Boyfriend of course and it was really nice. I am so grateful for what going on in my life right now and I gonna strive to really Give HIM thanks for it. The 21 day fast is coming up and I tryng to think what I am gonna fast...(need to fast all meals due the weight I've gain..but I digress)It's gonna be a great year..I just know it!

Control...ALT..DELETE....

Well its almost that time of year again...wait it IS that time of year again! That time where good feelings are abound...thankfulness is abundant and people seem to be more giving and happy..Yes its that season...Well then why in THE world do I feel sooo not happy atm?? Hmmm lets see...yes..yes you guess it..its the bf...Don't know what to think about this...been getting alot of advice and opinions about the whole thing...Without putting too much out there...the bf's issues have crepted (I know that's spelled wrong..but who cares?? Its MY blog..digressing tho..) up yet again only this time it was worse than ever..THe last MONTH has been pure-de-hell..and we almost broke up numerous times...He told me something that hurt me to my heart and frankly Im having the toughest time trying to get over it...or at least work thru it. He tells me he loves me but I just can NOT see it with his attitude. So finally we talked to his mentor who happens to be a pastor and I thought this would help but alas it doesn't seem like it has. I haven't a clue (well..that's a lie..I do) what to do cause my mind is telling me one thing and my heart another. ANd if it keeps going the way its going..my heart will soon be saying the same thing my mind is. Been getting alot of advice from ppl. Needless to say my mom is not to thrilled about the latest developments..not too thrilled AT all! To DD and EP..thank you for your to-the-point, no holds barred opinions and prayer...I really appreciate it. This is something I wish was easy. If I could just go back to the beginning when we first met and start over..maybe not jump sooo deeply in with my emotions..this would probably be alot easier. Sad part is that I still love him and care for him so letting go harder than I thought it would be. Sometimes I wanna erase or get a "do over" like we used to in grade school...because Im not fairing too well. I know the bf has to go thru some..well alot of this on his own because God is trying to get thru to him but I wish I didn't have to watch..its painful sometimes..It sure would be nice to have those buttons where you can start over or reboot...**siigh** keep praying for me ya'll...

Best Girlfriend EVER...

Well I know its been a minute since I'd be on here but i have been hecka busy and too tired to write! Anyway today was the bf's bday and I must say I think he has a really good time. This whole weekend was great for him matter of fact! So Fri nite we left after he got off work and headed to Rome, Ga again. This is where his best friend and his family live. We stayed the whole weekend with them and even had a party (altho there were some ghetto behind ppl there..but I digress) But what made my day is seeing the look on the bf's face when he opened his present from me..You see I got him a vintage Tee shirt he been dying to get "since 1987" (his words) I found it on a website and knew if I got him this shirt I would be the best girlfriend on the planet! Just the sheer look of joy on his face was enough for me! And the funny part was..earlier that day we were at the mall up there (a CAM aka Country A** Mall..his name for it)and he ALMOST bought the tee shirt! Ugh..bout had a mini-heart attack! His best friend convince him not to get it cuz i had alerted him that I had already GOT him one..whew! So needless to say he lost his mind when he opened his gift! I was happy! The party later that night was how should i say this....GHETTO...but it was for his best friend (his bday was two days earlier) and it was all his friends. Me and the bf felt outta place and I felt sick with all the smoke (practically everyone was smoking) so I went in the back room and laid down...bf followed and stayed back there until everyone left (that was at 3AM) All in all...we did have fun and I know now that my bf had a great time...Couldn't stop talking about the tee either...I should get a medal...hmmm

All Good things...

Well now that I got THAT off my chest...The VACAY was AWWWWWWSOOOMMMEEE!!! Me and the bf bonded like no other and the best part he bonded with my family! We floated down the lazy river and just talked and laughed and had a great time! He was really open and funny and receptive all of my family who was there! The only downside is that we had to leave before everyone else cuz we both had to go back to work! So back to GA we went...only to almost run out of GAS. We ended up having to call the roadside assistance at some remote GAS station that was CLOSED! Thankfully the tow truck guy who gave us 2gallons of gas (cost 5.60 and didn't even give me a HALF tank...thievery..i tell ya..but I digress)had pity on us and gave us enough to get the rest of the way home and I have some gas left over too. So this trip was pretty eventful and I'll never forget it...and I doubt the bf wont either!

Stick a fork in it.....

Sometimes the people closest to you can really make you wanna strangle them. AND NO Im not talking bout the bf this time! They say one thing and yet they mean another but yet you're supposed to guess that they mean the other thing! Ughh! Lets just say without putting them out on front street that I wish they would see that Im not such "no clue" person as they make me out to be. I can't win for losing...EVER! Just gets frustrating at times...makes me wanna cuss (and I have..LaWD forgive me!) So Im done...Im done with trying...done with hoping for approval cuz it seems like i'll never get it anyway...Lord ya gotta help me on this one...cus Im done!

The Adventures of D&K....

Well today me and the bf are going to Florida. Yes we are going on what I like to call a "mini-road trip" I know I've mentioned before that my Auntie has a timeshare in Orlando and this year she invited to bf to come along! I was estatic to say the least! So now we are hopping in my car and driving 8hrs and then spending the next 5days together with my side of the family. This pretty monumental..to both of us. For one thing, getting invited and two..the fact that we will be around each other 24/7. I must admit I am kinda excited...no scratch that REAL excited! This little adventure will give us a lil somewhat taste of what it will be like when we get married (looooong time from now) so we are both kinda stoked! And we are gonna surprise his dtr too and I'll be meeting her for the first time..Im kinda nervous cuz shes a teenager and girls and their daddies are a special thing. Im prob gonna give them some alone time too. Either way its pretty tight that we are going. He is actually excited himself which is great! So off on this lil adventure we go and I will dispense all the juicy details when we get back (maybe..wink, wink)

C&D Chronicles...blast from the past...

So Im sitting here taking my hair out so I can get it done tomorrow and trying NOT to look like a throw-back from the 70's but I digress... and while Im doing this I came across DD and wife's blog. (Yes he is actually married now...good for him) We actually reconnected a couple of weeks ago on FB and chatted a little (well he did most of the talking...THAT will never change!)on the phone. It was good to hear from him and I must admit I almost fell back into blurting out my whole life story since we..uh..Parted. However, I did not and besides the fact that he is now a married man (with two of the cutest children I've ever seen)and it feels weird now, I don't wanna get into THAT habit again. I guess I just missed his laughter and his wicked sense of humor. I think I finally threw that diary out I had that almost completely consisted of him in it. DD showed me alot...like I had mentioned in a post looong ago and It's still great to see that he and his family are serving God. I do get a little prideful (Lord forgive me)in knowing that I knew him when he first got saved...told me on the phone..I'll never forget that..but Im not a finished product...HE is still working on me! Anyway...its great to read his chronicles..both from him and his wife. She is the perfect match for him...God knew. I could have never been right for hi...I would have drove the poor man batty! I like reading what she writes and now video blogs too. Maybe I can get some insight..ya know. God sure has a funny way of bringing things full-circle but That's Him. So now there's yet another interesting tidbit that 2010 has given me...wonder what's next???