New Year...New Beginnings....

Well it's FEB already and I finally decided to write on here. Wheww!! January was a busy and interesting month....First off, I have left my church....for good. I was accused of something I didn't do, had nothing to do with and promptly hung up on. No details, but lets just say the Pastor needs to check his sources before he goes shooting off at the mouth..but I digress. Neways, I think it's a Good thing for right now because God has been able to show me that I can stand on my own two feet with just HIM. It's good. I have been studying my Word more and spending more time with HIM. I am still gonna try and find another church to go to for the time being because I will still be here for a bit (December Im outtie like the afro of Cali) I still need to hear the Word but I think I am at a good place...theres always room for improvement.....Which is why God decides to throw me a curve ball......

Yes, at least that's what I think it is, a dang curve ball or something, a test, what, I don't know. What the heck am I talkin about...well see, umm, how do I explain this...There's this man...well how can I say...he's seems to be Great. He contacted me online and we've been talkin. And all I can say is from what the conversations we've had and I have seen his page, he's like a diamond in the rough! He is seems very sincere and totally commited to Christ which is THE best thing in the world. I haven't met him yet but I think this man will try to make the effort. NOw why in THE world would God do this to me???? I mean HE knows, I wanna be with someone and HE also knows that IM MOVING! This guy JUST moved to Cali, has a couple of issues to deal with (who doesnt) but its just nice to be able to talk to a man and not be the one who always brings up God. HE wants to talk about Jesus, what He has done in his life, and he's been challenging me already. I know God is teaching me about balance and NOW patience, because in my own self, I would much rather "get the ball rolling" but I gotta hang back. We are gonna get to know each other as friends.....first, which I still have to figure out how to do. I usually just jump right on in without testing the water, forgetting that I can't swim and then I end up drowning the guy by trying to hold on to him! Oh dang......GOD, PLEASE give HIM patience to put up with ME! LOL. Its crazy why when I really decided to just focus on trying to get outta cali ,Boom, here this man comes.......I think it's more of a test to see how I handle this.......if God allows it, this may be a blessing in disguise. If anything I will have gained another friend. So I hope I hit this one out of the park! Geez, I've had enough practice striking out!! LOL

OH btw...CHRistmas at grandma's was pretty cool. Had a blast with my niece and nephews (i will post some pics) My grandma talked my ear off but I love talking to her, she makes me laugh so much. And she told she sees me as adult now so it gives more of an excuse to keep me till like 3am! Saw Dad too, He's getting better, he's back to work. Yeah, he had MAJOR surgery the latter part of NOV and I just found THAT out 3days before I was to go but God worked it out. It was amazing really. I know my Dad wants our family to be closer and He (God) basically had me just watch and listen to everything around while I was there. I am usually opening my mouth and chewing on my kneecaps but this time God kept me silent and said "Watch". And that's what I did and HE opened my eyes to ALot. I guess He was preparing for what has happened at the church.

SOOO this year is beginning quite interesting...and I am very curious to see how this all plays out....

Off to Grandma ma's

Well I'm goin to Grandma's Christmas Eve and I must admit I'm kinda excited. I will also be seein my youngest bro and his family and I haven't seen them in like three years! I'll get to see my newest nephew too! I can't wait. I really miss my youngest bro...we had a bond and i'll be good to see him. His family too but I have a soft spot for him...well for both of them. Neways, I'm excited. I am NOT excited bout the plane ride...just hope I don't have screaming child on this one, but thank da Lawd for my IPod!!! Oh...HE called again this am...I'm loving it and yesterday too...Man I'm startin to really be interested in this man but like me and my friend says...GYH girl, GYH (pronounced gweeeh) Guard Your Heart. OOH Lawd, help me to GYH!!! Well, I'll holla when I get back because I am SURE Grandma is gonna talk my EAR off when I get there and I'll be too busy playn with my neice and nephews! Merry CHRISTmas and Happy New YEAR!!!!

I love ChristmasTime!!!

Another lesson learned...

Well, I am DONE with my Christmas shopping!!!! Now all I have to do is pack all that stuff and ship some of it!!! HA HA! Neway, I am sooo glad Im done cuz tryin to shop THIS week would be hell!!! I think i wanted to personally kill people with my own two bare hands yesterday. Waiting 5omillion hours for a parking space was "mounds o' fun" too. But I digress. In other news....God sure is still teaching me to rely on HIM cuz I learned yet again another reason why you don't spill your guts to someone who you THINK is your close friend. NO she didn't blab to anyone my business (cuz dem's cause for fighting...LOL) however she did judge me and consequently kicked me out of her wedding (0f course that's not the reason she told me i wasnt in it...of course not..)And to top it off she didnt even have the guts to tell me to my face that she didn't want me in her wedding, I had to text HER to get an answer. Needless to say it thoroughly P'O'd me off, not the fact that I'm not in the wedding, but that I had to find out through a dang text. What made it worse was she asked my BROTHER to be in the wedding! GRRRRRR! I thought I was her friend (close friend by her words) but I guess I don't meet up to her "standards of spiritually" anymore once I told her what I was struggling with. Goes to show you, you have to watch who you really "let it all hang out with" It's just Me and YOU God. I should have listened to YOU when I was talking to her that night. Something inside me was telling me to shut up (It was YOU) and I didn't listen...I have a problem with that...gotta work on it! OH and did i mention she had the nerve to ask me help with decorations and "lil" projects... what Im not good enough to stand up with you nemore but I can help with the decorations...NO thanks, I'll be too busy now...Well Im venting...just made me so mad. And No im not talkin to her about it cuz wouldn't make any dang bit of difference. God just told me to be quiet...AGAIN...Grrr! And I am not gonna let it spoil my mood..It's Christmas time.....just had to vent...Whew! Breathe...Breathe.....OK...IM good NOW......

A smack in the forehead...

I must say December is becoming an interesting month. Got another call from my friend today and again it was a nice surprise. Well he told me he would call but i didn't believe him but he wont know that will he???? LOL Neways...the "blahs" are passing. Seems like I always wanna write a poem or something when I get the blahs....gotta work on writing when Im Happy and no blahs in sight! I know God is there for me and what snapped me out of my blah phase this time is Psalms 139...the whole chapter.. It was like God was tellin me...Duh, KENYA, HELLLLOOOO Im HERE..you just forgot....I (meaning GOD) GOT THIS NOT YOU! Sometimes I just need a big smack in the forehead. So guess that means I found my keys....HE had them all the time!

MIssing Keys...

I lost my keys...

Not my car keys...

Not my house keys....

Not even my locker keys to the gym.....

These keys are even more precious and more valuable

I should have kept a better eye on them

Where are they...I haven't a clue

These Keys are priceless, HE knew..

I used them to lock up something and I shouldn't have so I REALLY need them

These keys actually belong to SOMEONE else.

So GOD, a little help here....

Because those keys are YOURS

and this is the hard part,

For those keys...

Were to my HEART...

It's CHRIMAS time!!!

I can NOT believe christmas is like almost here! I am going to Grandma's and I get to see my new baby nephew! Im excited! The "blah's" are almost gone...geez...it happens every month...there must some relation too that somewhere....Neways, I am also happy because I just got a really good, surprise phone call and It totally made my day! This day is going purty well so far! I did do some of my christmas shopping on Sat with mom too so Im not too far behind. That's all for now....Im keeping on, keeping on...(wow, is that an OLD sayin or what!!!)